I looked through the pictures
of us being so happy together
Each one reminding me
of a happy place and time.
My knees grew weak as
I review of such bright life
And hopeful moments
Now reduced to a soulful ryhme.
When someone says your name
The pain still overwhelmes
It's so sad that our hopes are dashed
And the flashbacks just wont leave me alone.
Tears roll down my cheeks
One for each special memory
The coldness running through my soul
And the memories is still haunting me.
I was absolutely, unequivocally and totally certain - and i do mean beyond a shadow of a doubt completely sure- that having a special someone in my life was essential to me, being happy as though it was air to my lungs. I've learned , firsthand that eventually, you really do run out of tears and your heart gets tired of aching.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Me and my sister <3
Firstly , I'm Wee Nee . I'm just seventeen this year . I'm petite/small or whatever you call it.
I'm in my last year of high school, thankfully. I'll be doing my O levels this year and it seems to be a tough year for me. Coping with my squash and studies isn't easy. Well, would i refer myself as a Happy-Go-Lucky type of a girl? Honestly, i don't know. Life is full of ups and downs as everyone know. It's so cliche isn't it? But I'm still myself whether you like it or not.
Life is full of suprises, you wont know what will happen tomorrow , so why dont just cherish what you have before its gone. One thing i've learned ; through the hard way , don't dwell on the PAST and MOVE ON. The past will still remain as the past and that doesn't change whether you want it to or not. It is hard to resist the allure of dwelling on what has gone before, but that's not the point.Either way, you have to leave it behind because the only way to live is in the PRESENT. However, the FUTURE lies ahead of you and everybody else. So it is stll not too late to change for the better and so on.
My life is like a rollercoaster. My childhood life was rather vague. In fact, I dont think i even had a memorable day during my childhood. I was more of a dark , grumpy and unhappy little tiny girl sitting on a swing alone.I have a sister , Wee Wern. We both used to fight all the time. She is rather close to my mother, or well atleast alot closer to my mother than i am. But things have changed . From milk bottles to ribena to vodka. haha. We are all grown up now and my sister is already nineteen years old. She is great, always seem happy and she has a bright future ahead of her. She is doing so well in her squash career and everything. Well me on the other hand, I'm not as grumpy and unhappy as i was before. I'm playful and bound to get caught most of the time :p .I'm just treasuring what i have at the moment. I'm doing my final year of high school and the clock is ticking. It is about time for me to decide what i want to be in future but I'm still very lost and clueless. I don't know what I want or what im capable of doing but i hope God will guide me through the darkness and make every impossible situations to be possible. I have kick-ass and aweesome friends as well . They are the kind that if a house was burning down, they would be making smores and hitting on the firemen. but i LOVE THEM TO BITS <3